I wasn't even yours to loose.

Hello boys and girls, its been awhile since i last updated my blog. A lot have been happening lately, just done with my assignments and all. :) buttt, Finals is in 1 week away. Im gonna take baby's advise to study at least 2 chapters per day. Tho its hard, im gonna try my best. Oh, did i mentioned that mums pregnant? Yeah, she is actually, and shes due soon. We are all on stand by now. Kinda SAW lah! HAHA. So what else, college have been a pain in the ass. Tiring as FISH! Lol, im getting in and out of trouble when it comes to boys. Lol, yeah. To tell you the truth, i dont think im ever gonna love anyone like i loved HIM. He was the last person i'll ever love. To tell you the truth, until now, i do still love him. Always will, but one thing for sure, i am not in love with him. I find myself distracted again somehow. I had a talk with Sahar today, finally. He's been waiting for me for god knows how long. I do care about him, but nothing more then just a friend. I had to say some real harsh words to him, lets just hope he gives up. I don't wanna give falls hope or something. Cause thats the thing. He said something about he was scared was loosing me or i might treat him differently in the future. Thats the thing, i won't. Thats how i am. Its not because your special or different, just that i treat everyone equally. So don't get me wrong, its not that i'm flirting with you or anything, i was just being nice. Hmm, a lot have been happening lately really. Ive never been this tired before. I seriously need a break oh. Maybe a getaway ! Yes! Thats it :) Okay, im gonna go off now. I promise i'll update soon. Baby Sister on the way ;)

Listen to Lil Wayne

"Me and My Drank"

I Run From Hate, Prejudice, Pessimists

Hye, I had such a bad day today. I failed my JPJ test. Fuck bukit! Somemore, I was really upset about it. I felt like I dissapoint my mum. I don't know what was wrong with me. My body was shivering like fuck. Bodoh gile! I did better for my Jalan raya tho. but still i failed :'( and noooo, i don't see any bright side of it langsung! And my mum just had too pick a fight with me at that time. I needed her to actually be there for me, is it so hard for her to just say. Its okay Adik, you tried ur best. Theres always next time. Xde rezeki this time. WHY CANT SHE JUST SAY THAT! IS IT SO HARD! She just had too. The moment i feel like getting closer to her, she just had to ruin everything. Im not trying to point fingers or anything, I know i can be wrong too. But ish, tah lah. Excuses. Even before pun macam tue. Thats just one thing about her, she just won't listen! She only hears and then ignore everything that you've told her. Im just, Im just really upset. I needed her. And she wasn't there. That changes everything. Thanks a lot. After the JPJ thing kakak send me to KL Central and meet up with Leno there. Thank god he was there. Weih, i cried so much la lately. Not good at all. I think cause Im aging kut :/ Haih, Dont care la. Anyways, I meet some new people today of which I have no idea what the hell their name was. Soo, just came back from SACC mall with Leno. Had dinner there. Thanks Tina, Leno, and Kakak :( Im going off now, sorry for the QQ SOBSOB post . TAKE CARE

Listen to Lady Antebellum
"I Run To You"

Oh Darling, I Wish You Were Here

Hye Hye ! Tiring day la! Hahah, Today was my first day in college. God! Its fucking tiring, and the worst part is, its only the orientation day. Can you imagine how it would be like if i have classes on daily basis. Oh MEN! Die dude! Die! Hahah, But I have to admit, college is really different. but not that different. Its similar to school but different. Okay, Sorry! Im confusing you rite? I know :S Sorry. Haha, I made some new friends. Apparently Im the only malay girl in my class. Haha, The others are all Chinese. Hahah, but don't get me wrong people, Im fine with that :) Hehehe, Sooo. Yeah, I had my orientation thing today. It was okay la, not boring at all. Need to remind mum and dad to book the accommodation at Lake Side tho. Hmm, and and I wanna get a laptop. I want a MAC. MUMMY PLEASE ;) Yes, yes. Hahah, Note to self ; 1.Get a car from Daddy. 2. Persuade Mum to get me a MAC . Im such an ungrateful child ;P Spoiled. Hahha, I always find a way to get what I want ;) Who doesn't rite? HAHA, Okay la. I'm off to bed. Another long day tomorrow :) NIGHTYNITE

Listen to Owl City
"Vanilla Twilight"

Baby Baby Baby NO

HELLO :) One HELL of a day ! tiring but its worth it :) I went to The gardens with mum today. I got my hair treatment thing, and went for a walk there la. Later after that went to Zahra's to help her with The Banner for Zeza's farewell party :) OMG, then we went to Sha's house. I literally made a fool of myself when i tripped infront of Sha's family. OMG MEMALUKAN! Hahha, Sha's mum even asked her, "Die tue memang macam tue ke? " haha, then Sha said " Ya, die tue memang pelik sikit" -__-" Hahah, but kinda true tho :) heheh, Zeza's farewell party was fun :) I had a good time. Happy Birthday Ieka :) Zeza's leaving for PLKN the day after tomorrow :( We'll miss you Zeza ! Have fun ! :D Jumpa Syeera kut :D Rindu kecik tue ;) hehe, after the party Sha, Eliza and me went to Oldtown. Had our i-talk time :) Best, best :D Honestly speaking, I really miss you. And I really need you right now. I really really do. NIGHTY NITE

Listen to Justin Bieber feat Ludacris
"Baby"

Shackin All Off The Pain

Olah :) Whatsup ;D Supposed to go to changkat today, but decided to stay home instead with mum. Spend some quality time. Last night i had a nightmare, i looked at the time. And it was 2.55am in the morning. I took my bantal busuk ;P and went upstairs to my mums room. Then i slept with her :) she stayed in bed till i woke up this morning. Awww :) i was so flattered. I remembered it used to be my mum, my sis and me. My sis will sleep next to my mum, and i'll sleep at the end of the bed ;P Hahaha, good times, good times. Its been awhile, I love you mummy :) heheh, so anywayssss, i went for breakfast with Leno today at SACC mall. We ate uncle K. Xsedap ;O haha, later after that he send me home, and then i cleaned my room. HAHAH, yes i actually did :D Hahah, with the help of my lil brother tho. Having a lil brother is not that bad, ahah. Damn mean weyh! I bullied my brothers tho :) ANNOYING DOH DIORANG! hahah, tiring la. Kakak is back. hmm, what else ah? I don't like it when people get all perasaan and all . OMG, for god sake's la, it doesn't always have to be about you okay. I have a life too you know. eee, get over ureself. HAHAH, :) Don't worry, I might look and act differently. But i'm still me. hahah, bodoh nye ;P thats all for today :) NIGHTY NITE

Listen to Nick Jonas and The Admistration

"Who I Am"

I Walk , Jump, Flew

Hye hye :) i swear i literally spend my day sleeping :S I woke up at 1pm and went back to bed at 3.30pm. Hahah, now im up. But im still tired and sleepy .. Im gonna get fat la. No doubt :( Pain pain. PLUS i'm angry ! ohhh, mannnnnnnn ! I'm watching Glee now. Padahal, Ive watched the whole season tau. But can never get tired of it. Ishhhh, ishhh, isshhh . HAHAH, i wanna sleep la ;D NIGHTY NITE

Listen to Glee Cast
"No Air"

Love and Kisses

HELLO AGAIN :)
I'm back alrite ! Better and more improved me ! Its been awhile since i last blogged. I think im gonna start blogging again. Hahah, UPDATES ! Im starting college soon :) and finally, My JPJ test is confirmed. That is on the 2nd april. Lets just hope i dont fail the JPJ test as much as i did at my computer test. FUCK! Hehe, FYI, its 6 am in the morning and im still up ~ Thats what you get for waking up at 4pm in the evening :P Hahah, hmm. BORING LAH! Hahah, I think immagonnatrytosleepnowasineedit! ahah, try reading that. SUGAR RUSH ! Hhaha, alrite people. Thanks for following. But thats all for today :) Will blog soon ;) aite aite ? NIGHTY NITE .

Listen to Kristina Debarge
''Speak Up''